You can call me wiz, but most people know me under my "real" alias, ex-admin Daily (http://www.sythe.org/members/40681-daily.html). Yes, I'm still around and always will be. I've never done anything wrong to anyone in this community and as you can see I still actively do reconnaissance work to try to keep you mother fuckers safe. I knew these skype hackings were getting out of hand, so I decided to dive in head first to see how he was doing it.
To everyone who was hacked on skype:
Ooga was paying a rogue skype support employee $100 WU per account to reset any skype account he wanted. I've been social engineering him for well over two months to get info.
A week before now, he has contacted me saying he was thinking about killing himself. Then this happened. I don't expect to speak to him ever again though, kinda sad kid. Here is something he wrote. He told me to post it if he ever disappeared (killed himself.)
My name is Martin
I am a Sociopath.
This was started on 1/13/2013
Introduction.
I can’t tell you why I’m writing this, I can’t imagine having this published and having my friends and my peers around me find out who I really am. That would be my breaking point and this will be published when I have broken off connection with everyone I know. At the time I’m writing this I’m 17 (although everyone thinks I’m 18 that’s a story for later on). I’m not too sure who will read this or what you will think of me but I’d like to think this is going to be a extremely entertaining novel. I’m not to sure in what order I’m writing this but whatever comes to my mind. I will make this very clear if you are not intelligent this isn’t a book for you. If you ever had to question if you are intelligent or not put the book down. This is all based on true stories of my lies and life.
tl;dr version of this book that I will put on the back of my book
This novel is not for the weak minded this book is very complicated and is a novel explaining the thought proccess of one of the most intelligent people and most pyschopathic people that has ever set foot on this earth, or all of this is complete bull shit and I don't believe or think anything I say. If you wish to be entertained while really having to think about some things and read this novel like a story your grandfather would tell you when you were young, keep reading. (This was written on 11/24/13, and nothing about this will change this is about 7 pages into the book.)
Characters, if you want to read this you can but you’ll learn about people as the novel goes on.
I thought about not writing people’s real name to protect their identities but anyone who would know them by first name just knows all the stories anyway.
This first group is known as the “clique” I’m in real life.
Victor- This is one of my closest friends regardless of all the shit he does that just pisses me off. He is the sole reason I have the friends I have today, not even the friends I have today but if I hadn't become friends with him I would have a total of zero friends. I would do anything for him and sometimes I feel like he takes advantage of it but I have never minded.
Anthony- I don’t know how to describe him. I knew him for a long time but we were never close, until this year, he’s a really close friend and always have my back whenever I have problems with some queers. He’s a real ass friend to everyone.
Joey/Jojo- He’s a really smart person even though he gets “hot” so quick, he’s a pretty level headed guy. Does what needs to be done and backs up his friends no matter what. Respectable guy anyway you look at him. Came up with a few saying you’ll see in the novel.
Farieed- Recently he’s been a friend, he’s a smart guy and good guy all around but he makes some dumb ass choices and it bothers me. But oh well.
Vinny- Victor’s brother.
So, I decided to try “dabbing” today it’s oil extracted from weed, I’m not to sure, it was $75 bucks for it and was quite the waste of money. All it did was make me way to high, tired, and headache. That’s not the point there was a girl Emily who’s a sophomore; I kind of wanted to hook up with her she seemed like a really genuine girl which is important to me. I’ve told her 100 times to not bring $ when we hangout and I’ll pay for her but she did and she brought $45 bucks and left it somewhere and Victor took it. It’s pretty upsetting that victor did that to me, I wish he hadn’t and he just said some dumb shit and I got over it, but she was upset and said some stuff to make me feel bad. But she bitched and I got over her. She just walked out without her money or even looking for it, she was just dumb. It’s really sad that happened I really thought I could of made something there or at least smashed. Really makes me sad that I didn’t pull it off because of Victor. This is a good time to announce I appear to be radically honest and brutally honest to everyone I’m the most trustworthy person people know in real life. It’s weird when I’m the biggest sociopath ever in my eyes.
(The Wednesday before my prom )I stopped writing this for a long time and always wanted to come back to it, I’ve discovered a lot about myself recently the most important being, I have lots of thoughts of death and not about dying, just the fact that I want to kill so many people, no like oh I could kill that mother fucker, but in depth thoughts about killing people and once I think about killing someone I’m ready to kill them. The closest person I want to kill is my * I want him to die, then again I want a lot of people to die but I want to be the person who cause’s a death. I’m getting a 38 revolver in the near 2 weeks depending on what state of mind I’m at I might just go on a mass murder and kill everyone or I’ll go on a serial rampage and slowly kill them, the last being my I really do want to kill these people, I spoke to someone the other day about this and they said to even have these thoughts I have psychological problems, I always thought these were a normal occurrence for everyone honestly when people say sucide isn't a joke and stuff I kind of chuckle even with me being so ready to die i'm not sucidial just want a terminally ill desiese.People who claim they will commit sucide openely 99% of the time don't so if someone mentions it I'll push for it if I'm not a super good friend of the person. Ideally, I’d like to be known as the biggest serial killer and not get caught until I choose to get caught. I want to be remembered as the biggest piece of ( I didn't finish this for 13 days this log for some reason I couldn't bring my self to write it) shit ever. Time of writing this is 4/23/2013 I'm writing this because my internet is out we switched from AT&T to Comcast, I REALLY doubt you care I switched but AT&T because it was slow no real exciting reason. I'm now speaking to the customer support agent, he sounds like a white guy from texas.
I'm glad it's not a friend, I really can't stand black people for the most part. It's not like I hate ALL black people but I hate black people until proven to not be worthless. I hate them so much, friends are so fucking dirty so ratchet as fuck, the girls especially who are big and black and trashy and fat holy shit those girls should honestly burst into flames. Don't get me wrong I want to fuck a BIG ASS black bitch to fuck one day just because in porno's they seem desprete and will do anything.
I really don't know what you think about this book so far I don't even know what I think of it, so far it sounds pretty boring. I hate to say it because I want this book to entertain and really give some insight on the world. I'm texting my friend Pedro he's a really great human honestly, I don't know if you ever met anyone like that who really wants to help everyone and isn't doing everything for himself and does almost nothing for himself and has close to nothing but still would give you the shirt of his back if you asked for it. We are discussing the corruption of America maybe this book won't be published because of this part but who cares, I'm writing this for my self.
06/22/2013 I started again
I forgot about this for a really long time I’ve been thinking about suicide for a very long time and it would of happened ages ago and I found a few quotes that I thought would be enjoyable to anyone who has ever thought about suicide
“There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.”
“I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.”
My favorite one “I don't want to hurt you or anybody so please forget about me. Just try. Find yourself a better friend.”
You don’t even know how many times I’d like to do this but I know at least I think I know that I have some friends that would come to my house or something. I figure I’ll die very soon with all the crazy fucked up shit I do so this will never be finished. I hope whoever if anyone reads this publishes this at least to my facebook wall if no where else accepts it.
I want to talk about something’s very recent in my life. But first I want to update you on a few people.
Victor who I still consider my closest friend we don’t chill very much anymore which is kind of upsetting because of his gf Cami she’s kind of a ratchet ass bitch I couldn’t care less about her but he likes her so I treat her well. I respect his decision if that’s who he likes who I am to judge.
Anthony I’ve gotten really tight with him like extremely good friends with him everyday he calls me he’s like yo lets do something and when I was in middle school he is the most popular kid and everyone was scared of him he had a fresh ass charge at 16 years old tatted up had a fresh chest piece that says “Fear no man but God”.
Joey getting really tight with him as well but we always have been. We go to the club get so live and I laugh and watch as he hooks up with any girl near him he’s such a goon.
Okay, so I do a lot online very illegal and have been very successful in it and I moved up in ranking quite recently and a lot of organized crime is going threw me from BE’s to Medicare fraud to Murder. You wouldn’t believe how much of it is all collected and how every criminal knows each other and how much goes through me everyday I’m sitting here make bank. I am worth 1.3M usd right now.
There is this girl Zoe. I never really knew her because she’s a rich girl and shes like you know what I mean those rich people that think there above everyone? We got really close and were talking a little bit and I told her what I do online with theft and shit. SHE HATED it and I mean really hated it I tried to bring it up today and she said it makes her sick. She said she was going to Africa and I said what the fuck that’s gross and she’s like your close minded and we got into an argument and she said that. I might kill her when she comes back. I really truly might but she doesn’t deserve that. She’s a good person. Nah fuck it I’ll save my first for someone who truly deserves it. That sucked. I really liked this girl usually I don’t go for preppy girls like that but something about her just made me smile idk. I hope one day we talk again but she leaves for school in August and I’m staying around here if I’m not dead or in prison yet. Such is life…. BUT as I said Joey came up with a quote and she said that shit. Know what I told her? I told that bitch to HOLD MY DICK copyrighted to Smokey Jojo
The sun hasn’t died… Deep in my bones straight from insdie I’m waking up. I feel it in my bones. Enough to make my systems blow. Welcome to the new age.
Whenever I hear that quote from Imagine Dragons song Radioactive. JS I was ahead of the curve listening to them, in the car once the song came on and I like to sing, I'm an awful singer just incase you were wondering but I enjoy singing along and he is like you know this song??? I was like... Yeah he's like who is this even by what is this called no one had ever heard of them yet. I think of my life because I know that one day if I’m still around I’ll take over this world.
Everyone hates Hitler for what he did. I really don’t think ALL of it was that bad he had a good theme going just a bad execution. He was in the right to kill off the retards and idiots. What good are they dumb people are dangerous and should be killed. If Hitler wasn’t such an idiot himself he would of pulled off killing all the uneducated friends and the retards from this world. The killing of jews was stupid thought. You can’t kill someone based on a religion considering none of it is real anyways.
I started talking to Zoe again. This girl is like no other I really get something with her I don’t get with anyone else. That girl something about that girl really gets me going. Even I with all my confidence get the jitters talking to her. I’m sky high though. I just wish she would trust me when I tell her to. Whatever, we’ll see how it goes with this one. I can only hope it goes well.
I just woke up its 5:30 AM, my mom stay bitching that I’m awake. Why is she so annoying, I can’t understand it. I swear I hate her more then anyone. I can’t wait until I move out and I can change my # and pretend she doesn’t exist.
To anyone who reads this. I sent this part to zoe and the *************'s there was other stuff I can't show you yet, was so she couldn't see other stuff.
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There was other stuff there I just can’t show you it . I want to take her to the club so bad, and have her smoke pot with me, I just know it’s going to be hard. She use to hate on me sooooooo much for smoking weed and then she asked me for some one day for her friends and she tried it. Today is 7/15 and she’s only done it twice but I want to smoke with her. I keep telling her I want to take her off and show her off at the club even though I’m not physically attracted to her I told her this too and she gets offended that I’m not attracted to her. I can’t tell what that means since then I try to like flirt with her and she’s like don’t go there. Dumbass bitches I swear, I can’t help but want to talk to her, she’s got the most adorable little sister and her love for her is real it’s not that fake shit she really would do anything for her sister. It really is zeus, that means cute in German I just really like the word zeus “zuu-es”. I kind of want to tell her to read part of this I don’t know what I would tell her to read though, everything that she would read would scare her and I don’t want to send her this part as it contains how I truly feel about it and this is a book on 100% radical honesty but I can’t bring myself to get her to read this or any other part. She asked me if I really cared about her, or if I would ever hurt her. I told her I really do and I never would hurt her she’s my princess. I don’t say that in a sexual way like she’s mine. But I really do care for the girl and I want her to be my princess just not the same way other people would interrupt that. I hope she doesn’t think I have strong feelings for her to like want to pipe her. Hmm, maybe I should ask her to read this. Maybe not. I’ll ask her if she wants to read this and if she does she can, if she doesn’t she can’t. She said she needs something to cuddle with before she sleeps or she can’t sleep. I really like to cuddle too I’ll make her my cuddle buddy or at least try to, she might take it the wrong way she really isn’t good at understanding something’s unless I flat out come and say it. Her dad is cheating on her mom I’m pretty sure, I feel awful about it I offered to help and get proof but she doesn’t know if she wants to tear her family up over it. I don’t think she should but then she says how her dad makes her feel worthless and he always makes her cry. I’d never let that shit fly in front of me I keep offering to pick her up, I want to see if he would ever say anything to her in front of me, I’d crack him she’d hate me for it but I’d crack him. When she comes back I’m gonna teach this bitch to roll a blunt, and I’m gonna take her to one club.
Peace out 7-15 the next time I’ll start writing again is if she reads this or I get someone to read part of it.
I showed Zoe she didn’t really tell me what she thought of it more she said it was okay. I don't even think this sentence is worth writing. Today some people messeged my friend edrick on the facebook asking if he knew me and that I stole 100k in runescape goods.
It is now 9/29/2013
I am now sitting in my apartment, did I mention I got one? My brother pisesed me off last month, I stole a 5 grand in his car there was 13600 I should of taken that, I took 5 grand, 110 grand, and then after I moved out 2k from his car again. What a moron leaving money in there again. We got into a fight because well I stole his $ I took a few shots at him with my brass knuckles I wish I hit him and left his body in the road, he’s a worthless piece of shit I hate that idiot. I didn’t even need the $ I have plenty of my own, I just wanted to betray him so he knows that I hate him, I guess that not logical.. My family hates me now, I don’t mind too much they are a bunch of retards. My mom is one of those crazy ladies she use to bang her head against the wall praying to die when I got a F on my homework in school. I honestly believe she has multiple personalities and has a mental illness glad to be rid of her, my dad is just upset about the whole situation but he’s so much of a fucking retard that he won’t remember he had a son in a year. One of the dumbest people I’ve ever met. My brother is just worthless, he does nothing with his life but smoke weed, and play poker. Worthless selfish bitch, when we got in a fight on the street I told him I was going to put a bullet in him. I got pretty close I was at his location holding it but I figured eh, not worth it yet. 100 grand went to off shore accounts that I can't access.
I think I’m pretty sick in the had for a few reasons, anything can set me off I’m almost always ready and willing to kill, I think I’m a natural born killer. That’s why I want to kill myself because eventually I’m going to act on my impulses and kill everyone around me instead. This girl threw a drink in my face I went home and got a gun and almost waited by her car to just shoot her. Too many cops around though, I don’t deal well with monkeys in prison. I had a dream that night I slammed her hair in my passenger door and dragged her all across town. Boy I wish I had done that.
There is this moron named Ben, asked to borrow $300 from me a few months ago, I told him I’d give him $100 he said he would have it next week, 4 weeks later he still says next week, even though I see him at the club wasting $100 like that, pay me back you fucking moron. It’s not about the $ it’s the principal I called him out hard. I just told him he’s a fake ass friend, he robbed a boy for $100 and he ain’t a man of his word, he can keep his $100 I just told him to delete my # and never speak to me again. Fucking queer friend.
Anthony owes me about a grand, + my brothers ps3 that he lost. I’m still not sure if his gf’s brother stole it or he pawned it, he would pull some hot shit like that if he needed some quick cash, I think he did I asked him he said no but I really do think he did. I’ve lent him money back to back for about a year, I think I never minded knowing I would never get it back because he introduced me to all my friends, whenever I got into shit at school he would just settle it and I would never have to worry about it again. One of the best worst friends I’ve ever had but I wouldn’t lose my friendship with him for anything, he always goes out of his way to help me if he can.
I haven’t spoke to Vic much, I hope he’s doing well with his gf. He could hit me up right now for anything and I’d do it.
I think I’ll kill myself before the middle of next month. People can invesion there life in a few weeks or month or years even. I can never see past today. The only think I’m debating is to kill all the worthless people or just kill myself. I want to kill myself to avoid that but I figure hell with it. Sigh. Why am I so sick in the head.
First person to ever read this is DjWeezy. Real ass friend as far as I know.
TTB/Jushen have read this.
Video/Ben have read this.
Tony has read this,.
JohnG has read this
I just realzied something but first I got a Hubby bar from Fado, his gf was there who I have a big past with, not like us having anything but she has always been involved with my friends and she looked pretty good, i ues to think she was gross. Anyways I just decided what I want this to be the book I guess. A story like my life I want people to read this book and think that like their grandpa is telling a story, sometimes he drifts off and starts talking about something totally else. Maybe people will like it I mean I'd love to read this book if I was someone else. I guess this is good. I want my book to be written in the order I thought to write of it so I guesss if someone is reading this now, we both know the reason at this point in time we both know that I wrote this book to tell a story.
I had someone from Arcus-gold.com read this. The owner he's been cool to me lately. I hacked his webist e and extorted him and shit. the usual. Oh, I'm a really good social engineer. I'm not a "hacker" who gets into websites with like SQL injection or some crap. I can just talk my way into being the owner of a website and I'll just get it and take shit over. Same with skype. Fucking morons on skype live chat given me over 200 accounts. Like, come on how can you be so dumb, I don't even change my IP I had someone say to me, you have cotnacted us for over 96 contacts one time. Was pretty funny.
Shark Tank.... IS AWESOME.
I'm at a hotel right now it's 11/22/13, got enough $ to come here for a night so I could try to hack and scam and shit today. Didn't work out. So $0 in my pocket. Idk how I bleed money so much. I just do. I don't value money. I just want to figure my life out. I want to go somewhere and get away from everything. I got kicked out of my apartmnet for not paying I decided like the first week I wouldn't pay another dime, that placed sucked, AC didn't work first week, stupid dog barked all night, my house and car as well as my neighbors's house and car was infested in ants, when I asked the leasing center to do something about it they said it is nature fuck that? .
It's morning of 11/23 I have to checkout soon. I have no idea what I am doing when I check out, couldn't scam any $ all day. I would never kill myself wiht like a gun or something. I just rather go to the doctor and he is like you have a disese that if you don't get treatment you will have a year to live or something like that. I would never get the treatment, if I had cancer or anything. I wouldn't do it. I rather just die.
Well until nexxt time folks
It is 11/24
I just re-wrote some of my novel if you can even call this a novel yet, just touching up some stuff writing up bits and pieces. I meet a lot of people on Skype from online MMORPG's that I play or website's I hack and shit. People try way to hard to understand me and think I am emotionally hurt and stuff. I don't think I'm emotionally hurt at all, people seem to think that and get the wrong idea of me. Let me make something clear to everyone on what I think of me and my rules.
I will steal from anyone who I don't have loyalty to. There's about 8 people I'm loyal to and would never rat out, snitch, fuck over, steal from or anything; EVEN if they stole from me and did everything they could, when I'm loyal to someone I just am. Those people are the following, I figure this would be a good way to introduce some new people.
Michael, I've only known him for about a year and a half, he's like an uncle like a street realationship but he knows my real uncle and lives at my old house with my mom and brother, no he doesn't bang my mom. Though, I couldn't care less if they were hell if it was up to me, my mom could use a dick maybe then she will stop being so crazy. She can't handle anything her immediate reaction is to cry and hope to die and bang her head against the wall. IMO she should be in a mental institute or on some serious drugs.
Christopher , I haven't introduced him yet but he is one of my best friends he is very good looking and muscular never took steriods even though a lot of people think he did and he is friends with all of my same friends which are all known juice heads. Did I mention Victor cleaned up? He stopped doing all drugs, got serious with his whore excuse of a girl friend but they are really good for each other it seems, whatever makes him happy I'll back up. But he could do better, she's just not a girl you settle down with, she's the type of girl to get way to wasted, have sex with a guy willingly, claim rape.
Evan, all time best friend no one comes before him, known him and his family since I was like three years old. Spent more time with him I think then anyone else, so weird because we have no common intrest except for the fact that we can both read each other like a book.
I'm in my car at a hotel parking lot, waiting to get my room carded so I can get a free place to live tonight, well free for me not free for whoever gets my bill lelelele point being someone jsut past me by and I wanted to ask them if they have time to read my book. If someone comes by that looks half intelligent I might ask them to read this. I get distracted so easily, was writng about my friends ( I stopped writing this sentence half way got distracted I don't even remember with what seconds ago) and just saw a person and wrote about him.
30 minutes later and I haven't finished the 8 people. This book will never be done, * chuckled at own self attention span* Jesus crist what is wrong with me lol. I'm going to make an effort to write just one page a day with no missed days and have a total of four hundred to five hundred pages before I attempt to get this book published, if this novel is not published I'll just mass email it to the 100 million emails I have. If it is published and I can't get publicity for it and I happen to be rich I will personally pay for 100 million copies of this book to be made and ship it to people randomly and allow people to donate to me if they like the book. That would be cool? Free book if you feel the book was worth anything to you send me a donation if you like if you don't want to or can't afford it then okay and if you didn't like it send me the book back if you want and I'll send you $3 for taking the time to read it and send it back. Hmm, that'd be nice if I had the capital. End 11/23/13
Didn't even finish the list I'll end up finsihing it here is another one since we talked earlier it's still 11/23/13.
Momma Peggy, I call everyones mom just "mom" they are someones mom right? And in my phone it's Momma ( if they are a mom that has a kid I know ) and her name. Peggy, ANYWAYS jesus crist you don't care about that even I don't carea bout that. Anyways, I asked her if she could book me a hotel and i'd give her the cash in a week or something she said sure, I said nvm I don't need it anymore. Mostly because IDK when I'd have the cash and I felt bad for asking. Espically her, I know her son and we are alright friends but she was an office lady from school I don't know what title they get. But she is the best she knows i'd doa nything for her, someone cursed her out I almost got charged for threatning to kill someone because I told that BITCH Swartz what the fuck deal was if he ever said some shit like that he knwos he would get his ass wwhooped. She is also friendly with Anthony, Victor, Joey, If you saw how swoll these kids are and how nuts they are and their reputation you don't want to be on there badside and she is cool with them and hooked them up too, and by hook up I just mean she gave us pass's to leave school and cleared out attendence and stuff, pretty funny. She's the best.
My brother told Mike he wanted to talk to me, there is nothing to talk about I don't know what he doesn't understand, I don't like him, he's a worthless sack of shit, I hope he gets hit by a bus geniunly but I hope a lot of people get hit by a bus so don't think that's a big deal. He got robbed, he had his chance to fight me, he's a bitch. End of story move on with your life idiot. I don't know what he wants to talk about nor do I care.
I guess that's all that I have for now... I hopeee I keep my promise of a page a day.
Wow, I went to go look at my screenshots before closing my laptop I see a picture of me speaking to Raymond N, Raymond N is the person who hoosk me on up on skype accounts. whenever I went to live chat I kept asking for Raymond B, idk why but I hought his name was Raymond B, how the fuck did I fuck that up oh my god. I fucked up so hard
I am flat broke in America now. I have nothing left. I have to much pride and ego to ask anyone in the real world for any help. Not to mention that the only thing I'm thinking about is to kill everyone who has ever screwed me in life in any way shape or form. This is 12/11/2013
I have no intention of living past next sunday if I'm still alive and in the same situation I will commit sucidie. I plan to check my self into a mental institute. Good luck to all who have read this and or will read this in the future.
If by 12/15 this has not been updated anyone who reads this expect me to be dead or in a mental hospital.
Good bye.
Martin Maziar Zamani
Proud crazy Pyschopath and Sociopath.
Shoutout jizzy q
To everyone who was hacked on skype:
Ooga was paying a rogue skype support employee $100 WU per account to reset any skype account he wanted. I've been social engineering him for well over two months to get info.
A week before now, he has contacted me saying he was thinking about killing himself. Then this happened. I don't expect to speak to him ever again though, kinda sad kid. Here is something he wrote. He told me to post it if he ever disappeared (killed himself.)
My name is Martin
I am a Sociopath.
This was started on 1/13/2013
Introduction.
I can’t tell you why I’m writing this, I can’t imagine having this published and having my friends and my peers around me find out who I really am. That would be my breaking point and this will be published when I have broken off connection with everyone I know. At the time I’m writing this I’m 17 (although everyone thinks I’m 18 that’s a story for later on). I’m not too sure who will read this or what you will think of me but I’d like to think this is going to be a extremely entertaining novel. I’m not to sure in what order I’m writing this but whatever comes to my mind. I will make this very clear if you are not intelligent this isn’t a book for you. If you ever had to question if you are intelligent or not put the book down. This is all based on true stories of my lies and life.
tl;dr version of this book that I will put on the back of my book
This novel is not for the weak minded this book is very complicated and is a novel explaining the thought proccess of one of the most intelligent people and most pyschopathic people that has ever set foot on this earth, or all of this is complete bull shit and I don't believe or think anything I say. If you wish to be entertained while really having to think about some things and read this novel like a story your grandfather would tell you when you were young, keep reading. (This was written on 11/24/13, and nothing about this will change this is about 7 pages into the book.)
Characters, if you want to read this you can but you’ll learn about people as the novel goes on.
I thought about not writing people’s real name to protect their identities but anyone who would know them by first name just knows all the stories anyway.
This first group is known as the “clique” I’m in real life.
Victor- This is one of my closest friends regardless of all the shit he does that just pisses me off. He is the sole reason I have the friends I have today, not even the friends I have today but if I hadn't become friends with him I would have a total of zero friends. I would do anything for him and sometimes I feel like he takes advantage of it but I have never minded.
Anthony- I don’t know how to describe him. I knew him for a long time but we were never close, until this year, he’s a really close friend and always have my back whenever I have problems with some queers. He’s a real ass friend to everyone.
Joey/Jojo- He’s a really smart person even though he gets “hot” so quick, he’s a pretty level headed guy. Does what needs to be done and backs up his friends no matter what. Respectable guy anyway you look at him. Came up with a few saying you’ll see in the novel.
Farieed- Recently he’s been a friend, he’s a smart guy and good guy all around but he makes some dumb ass choices and it bothers me. But oh well.
Vinny- Victor’s brother.
So, I decided to try “dabbing” today it’s oil extracted from weed, I’m not to sure, it was $75 bucks for it and was quite the waste of money. All it did was make me way to high, tired, and headache. That’s not the point there was a girl Emily who’s a sophomore; I kind of wanted to hook up with her she seemed like a really genuine girl which is important to me. I’ve told her 100 times to not bring $ when we hangout and I’ll pay for her but she did and she brought $45 bucks and left it somewhere and Victor took it. It’s pretty upsetting that victor did that to me, I wish he hadn’t and he just said some dumb shit and I got over it, but she was upset and said some stuff to make me feel bad. But she bitched and I got over her. She just walked out without her money or even looking for it, she was just dumb. It’s really sad that happened I really thought I could of made something there or at least smashed. Really makes me sad that I didn’t pull it off because of Victor. This is a good time to announce I appear to be radically honest and brutally honest to everyone I’m the most trustworthy person people know in real life. It’s weird when I’m the biggest sociopath ever in my eyes.
(The Wednesday before my prom )I stopped writing this for a long time and always wanted to come back to it, I’ve discovered a lot about myself recently the most important being, I have lots of thoughts of death and not about dying, just the fact that I want to kill so many people, no like oh I could kill that mother fucker, but in depth thoughts about killing people and once I think about killing someone I’m ready to kill them. The closest person I want to kill is my * I want him to die, then again I want a lot of people to die but I want to be the person who cause’s a death. I’m getting a 38 revolver in the near 2 weeks depending on what state of mind I’m at I might just go on a mass murder and kill everyone or I’ll go on a serial rampage and slowly kill them, the last being my I really do want to kill these people, I spoke to someone the other day about this and they said to even have these thoughts I have psychological problems, I always thought these were a normal occurrence for everyone honestly when people say sucide isn't a joke and stuff I kind of chuckle even with me being so ready to die i'm not sucidial just want a terminally ill desiese.People who claim they will commit sucide openely 99% of the time don't so if someone mentions it I'll push for it if I'm not a super good friend of the person. Ideally, I’d like to be known as the biggest serial killer and not get caught until I choose to get caught. I want to be remembered as the biggest piece of ( I didn't finish this for 13 days this log for some reason I couldn't bring my self to write it) shit ever. Time of writing this is 4/23/2013 I'm writing this because my internet is out we switched from AT&T to Comcast, I REALLY doubt you care I switched but AT&T because it was slow no real exciting reason. I'm now speaking to the customer support agent, he sounds like a white guy from texas.
I'm glad it's not a friend, I really can't stand black people for the most part. It's not like I hate ALL black people but I hate black people until proven to not be worthless. I hate them so much, friends are so fucking dirty so ratchet as fuck, the girls especially who are big and black and trashy and fat holy shit those girls should honestly burst into flames. Don't get me wrong I want to fuck a BIG ASS black bitch to fuck one day just because in porno's they seem desprete and will do anything.
I really don't know what you think about this book so far I don't even know what I think of it, so far it sounds pretty boring. I hate to say it because I want this book to entertain and really give some insight on the world. I'm texting my friend Pedro he's a really great human honestly, I don't know if you ever met anyone like that who really wants to help everyone and isn't doing everything for himself and does almost nothing for himself and has close to nothing but still would give you the shirt of his back if you asked for it. We are discussing the corruption of America maybe this book won't be published because of this part but who cares, I'm writing this for my self.
06/22/2013 I started again
I forgot about this for a really long time I’ve been thinking about suicide for a very long time and it would of happened ages ago and I found a few quotes that I thought would be enjoyable to anyone who has ever thought about suicide
“There used to be days that I thought I was okay, or at least that I was going to be. We'd be hanging out somewhere and everything would just fit right and I would think 'it will be okay if it can just be like this forever' but of course nothing can ever stay just how it is forever.”
“I am constantly torn between killing myself and killing everyone around me.”
My favorite one “I don't want to hurt you or anybody so please forget about me. Just try. Find yourself a better friend.”
You don’t even know how many times I’d like to do this but I know at least I think I know that I have some friends that would come to my house or something. I figure I’ll die very soon with all the crazy fucked up shit I do so this will never be finished. I hope whoever if anyone reads this publishes this at least to my facebook wall if no where else accepts it.
I want to talk about something’s very recent in my life. But first I want to update you on a few people.
Victor who I still consider my closest friend we don’t chill very much anymore which is kind of upsetting because of his gf Cami she’s kind of a ratchet ass bitch I couldn’t care less about her but he likes her so I treat her well. I respect his decision if that’s who he likes who I am to judge.
Anthony I’ve gotten really tight with him like extremely good friends with him everyday he calls me he’s like yo lets do something and when I was in middle school he is the most popular kid and everyone was scared of him he had a fresh ass charge at 16 years old tatted up had a fresh chest piece that says “Fear no man but God”.
Joey getting really tight with him as well but we always have been. We go to the club get so live and I laugh and watch as he hooks up with any girl near him he’s such a goon.
Okay, so I do a lot online very illegal and have been very successful in it and I moved up in ranking quite recently and a lot of organized crime is going threw me from BE’s to Medicare fraud to Murder. You wouldn’t believe how much of it is all collected and how every criminal knows each other and how much goes through me everyday I’m sitting here make bank. I am worth 1.3M usd right now.
There is this girl Zoe. I never really knew her because she’s a rich girl and shes like you know what I mean those rich people that think there above everyone? We got really close and were talking a little bit and I told her what I do online with theft and shit. SHE HATED it and I mean really hated it I tried to bring it up today and she said it makes her sick. She said she was going to Africa and I said what the fuck that’s gross and she’s like your close minded and we got into an argument and she said that. I might kill her when she comes back. I really truly might but she doesn’t deserve that. She’s a good person. Nah fuck it I’ll save my first for someone who truly deserves it. That sucked. I really liked this girl usually I don’t go for preppy girls like that but something about her just made me smile idk. I hope one day we talk again but she leaves for school in August and I’m staying around here if I’m not dead or in prison yet. Such is life…. BUT as I said Joey came up with a quote and she said that shit. Know what I told her? I told that bitch to HOLD MY DICK copyrighted to Smokey Jojo
The sun hasn’t died… Deep in my bones straight from insdie I’m waking up. I feel it in my bones. Enough to make my systems blow. Welcome to the new age.
Whenever I hear that quote from Imagine Dragons song Radioactive. JS I was ahead of the curve listening to them, in the car once the song came on and I like to sing, I'm an awful singer just incase you were wondering but I enjoy singing along and he is like you know this song??? I was like... Yeah he's like who is this even by what is this called no one had ever heard of them yet. I think of my life because I know that one day if I’m still around I’ll take over this world.
Everyone hates Hitler for what he did. I really don’t think ALL of it was that bad he had a good theme going just a bad execution. He was in the right to kill off the retards and idiots. What good are they dumb people are dangerous and should be killed. If Hitler wasn’t such an idiot himself he would of pulled off killing all the uneducated friends and the retards from this world. The killing of jews was stupid thought. You can’t kill someone based on a religion considering none of it is real anyways.
I started talking to Zoe again. This girl is like no other I really get something with her I don’t get with anyone else. That girl something about that girl really gets me going. Even I with all my confidence get the jitters talking to her. I’m sky high though. I just wish she would trust me when I tell her to. Whatever, we’ll see how it goes with this one. I can only hope it goes well.
I just woke up its 5:30 AM, my mom stay bitching that I’m awake. Why is she so annoying, I can’t understand it. I swear I hate her more then anyone. I can’t wait until I move out and I can change my # and pretend she doesn’t exist.
To anyone who reads this. I sent this part to zoe and the *************'s there was other stuff I can't show you yet, was so she couldn't see other stuff.
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There was other stuff there I just can’t show you it . I want to take her to the club so bad, and have her smoke pot with me, I just know it’s going to be hard. She use to hate on me sooooooo much for smoking weed and then she asked me for some one day for her friends and she tried it. Today is 7/15 and she’s only done it twice but I want to smoke with her. I keep telling her I want to take her off and show her off at the club even though I’m not physically attracted to her I told her this too and she gets offended that I’m not attracted to her. I can’t tell what that means since then I try to like flirt with her and she’s like don’t go there. Dumbass bitches I swear, I can’t help but want to talk to her, she’s got the most adorable little sister and her love for her is real it’s not that fake shit she really would do anything for her sister. It really is zeus, that means cute in German I just really like the word zeus “zuu-es”. I kind of want to tell her to read part of this I don’t know what I would tell her to read though, everything that she would read would scare her and I don’t want to send her this part as it contains how I truly feel about it and this is a book on 100% radical honesty but I can’t bring myself to get her to read this or any other part. She asked me if I really cared about her, or if I would ever hurt her. I told her I really do and I never would hurt her she’s my princess. I don’t say that in a sexual way like she’s mine. But I really do care for the girl and I want her to be my princess just not the same way other people would interrupt that. I hope she doesn’t think I have strong feelings for her to like want to pipe her. Hmm, maybe I should ask her to read this. Maybe not. I’ll ask her if she wants to read this and if she does she can, if she doesn’t she can’t. She said she needs something to cuddle with before she sleeps or she can’t sleep. I really like to cuddle too I’ll make her my cuddle buddy or at least try to, she might take it the wrong way she really isn’t good at understanding something’s unless I flat out come and say it. Her dad is cheating on her mom I’m pretty sure, I feel awful about it I offered to help and get proof but she doesn’t know if she wants to tear her family up over it. I don’t think she should but then she says how her dad makes her feel worthless and he always makes her cry. I’d never let that shit fly in front of me I keep offering to pick her up, I want to see if he would ever say anything to her in front of me, I’d crack him she’d hate me for it but I’d crack him. When she comes back I’m gonna teach this bitch to roll a blunt, and I’m gonna take her to one club.
Peace out 7-15 the next time I’ll start writing again is if she reads this or I get someone to read part of it.
I showed Zoe she didn’t really tell me what she thought of it more she said it was okay. I don't even think this sentence is worth writing. Today some people messeged my friend edrick on the facebook asking if he knew me and that I stole 100k in runescape goods.
It is now 9/29/2013
I am now sitting in my apartment, did I mention I got one? My brother pisesed me off last month, I stole a 5 grand in his car there was 13600 I should of taken that, I took 5 grand, 110 grand, and then after I moved out 2k from his car again. What a moron leaving money in there again. We got into a fight because well I stole his $ I took a few shots at him with my brass knuckles I wish I hit him and left his body in the road, he’s a worthless piece of shit I hate that idiot. I didn’t even need the $ I have plenty of my own, I just wanted to betray him so he knows that I hate him, I guess that not logical.. My family hates me now, I don’t mind too much they are a bunch of retards. My mom is one of those crazy ladies she use to bang her head against the wall praying to die when I got a F on my homework in school. I honestly believe she has multiple personalities and has a mental illness glad to be rid of her, my dad is just upset about the whole situation but he’s so much of a fucking retard that he won’t remember he had a son in a year. One of the dumbest people I’ve ever met. My brother is just worthless, he does nothing with his life but smoke weed, and play poker. Worthless selfish bitch, when we got in a fight on the street I told him I was going to put a bullet in him. I got pretty close I was at his location holding it but I figured eh, not worth it yet. 100 grand went to off shore accounts that I can't access.
I think I’m pretty sick in the had for a few reasons, anything can set me off I’m almost always ready and willing to kill, I think I’m a natural born killer. That’s why I want to kill myself because eventually I’m going to act on my impulses and kill everyone around me instead. This girl threw a drink in my face I went home and got a gun and almost waited by her car to just shoot her. Too many cops around though, I don’t deal well with monkeys in prison. I had a dream that night I slammed her hair in my passenger door and dragged her all across town. Boy I wish I had done that.
There is this moron named Ben, asked to borrow $300 from me a few months ago, I told him I’d give him $100 he said he would have it next week, 4 weeks later he still says next week, even though I see him at the club wasting $100 like that, pay me back you fucking moron. It’s not about the $ it’s the principal I called him out hard. I just told him he’s a fake ass friend, he robbed a boy for $100 and he ain’t a man of his word, he can keep his $100 I just told him to delete my # and never speak to me again. Fucking queer friend.
Anthony owes me about a grand, + my brothers ps3 that he lost. I’m still not sure if his gf’s brother stole it or he pawned it, he would pull some hot shit like that if he needed some quick cash, I think he did I asked him he said no but I really do think he did. I’ve lent him money back to back for about a year, I think I never minded knowing I would never get it back because he introduced me to all my friends, whenever I got into shit at school he would just settle it and I would never have to worry about it again. One of the best worst friends I’ve ever had but I wouldn’t lose my friendship with him for anything, he always goes out of his way to help me if he can.
I haven’t spoke to Vic much, I hope he’s doing well with his gf. He could hit me up right now for anything and I’d do it.
I think I’ll kill myself before the middle of next month. People can invesion there life in a few weeks or month or years even. I can never see past today. The only think I’m debating is to kill all the worthless people or just kill myself. I want to kill myself to avoid that but I figure hell with it. Sigh. Why am I so sick in the head.
First person to ever read this is DjWeezy. Real ass friend as far as I know.
TTB/Jushen have read this.
Video/Ben have read this.
Tony has read this,.
JohnG has read this
I just realzied something but first I got a Hubby bar from Fado, his gf was there who I have a big past with, not like us having anything but she has always been involved with my friends and she looked pretty good, i ues to think she was gross. Anyways I just decided what I want this to be the book I guess. A story like my life I want people to read this book and think that like their grandpa is telling a story, sometimes he drifts off and starts talking about something totally else. Maybe people will like it I mean I'd love to read this book if I was someone else. I guess this is good. I want my book to be written in the order I thought to write of it so I guesss if someone is reading this now, we both know the reason at this point in time we both know that I wrote this book to tell a story.
I had someone from Arcus-gold.com read this. The owner he's been cool to me lately. I hacked his webist e and extorted him and shit. the usual. Oh, I'm a really good social engineer. I'm not a "hacker" who gets into websites with like SQL injection or some crap. I can just talk my way into being the owner of a website and I'll just get it and take shit over. Same with skype. Fucking morons on skype live chat given me over 200 accounts. Like, come on how can you be so dumb, I don't even change my IP I had someone say to me, you have cotnacted us for over 96 contacts one time. Was pretty funny.
Shark Tank.... IS AWESOME.
I'm at a hotel right now it's 11/22/13, got enough $ to come here for a night so I could try to hack and scam and shit today. Didn't work out. So $0 in my pocket. Idk how I bleed money so much. I just do. I don't value money. I just want to figure my life out. I want to go somewhere and get away from everything. I got kicked out of my apartmnet for not paying I decided like the first week I wouldn't pay another dime, that placed sucked, AC didn't work first week, stupid dog barked all night, my house and car as well as my neighbors's house and car was infested in ants, when I asked the leasing center to do something about it they said it is nature fuck that? .
It's morning of 11/23 I have to checkout soon. I have no idea what I am doing when I check out, couldn't scam any $ all day. I would never kill myself wiht like a gun or something. I just rather go to the doctor and he is like you have a disese that if you don't get treatment you will have a year to live or something like that. I would never get the treatment, if I had cancer or anything. I wouldn't do it. I rather just die.
Well until nexxt time folks
It is 11/24
I just re-wrote some of my novel if you can even call this a novel yet, just touching up some stuff writing up bits and pieces. I meet a lot of people on Skype from online MMORPG's that I play or website's I hack and shit. People try way to hard to understand me and think I am emotionally hurt and stuff. I don't think I'm emotionally hurt at all, people seem to think that and get the wrong idea of me. Let me make something clear to everyone on what I think of me and my rules.
I will steal from anyone who I don't have loyalty to. There's about 8 people I'm loyal to and would never rat out, snitch, fuck over, steal from or anything; EVEN if they stole from me and did everything they could, when I'm loyal to someone I just am. Those people are the following, I figure this would be a good way to introduce some new people.
Michael, I've only known him for about a year and a half, he's like an uncle like a street realationship but he knows my real uncle and lives at my old house with my mom and brother, no he doesn't bang my mom. Though, I couldn't care less if they were hell if it was up to me, my mom could use a dick maybe then she will stop being so crazy. She can't handle anything her immediate reaction is to cry and hope to die and bang her head against the wall. IMO she should be in a mental institute or on some serious drugs.
Christopher , I haven't introduced him yet but he is one of my best friends he is very good looking and muscular never took steriods even though a lot of people think he did and he is friends with all of my same friends which are all known juice heads. Did I mention Victor cleaned up? He stopped doing all drugs, got serious with his whore excuse of a girl friend but they are really good for each other it seems, whatever makes him happy I'll back up. But he could do better, she's just not a girl you settle down with, she's the type of girl to get way to wasted, have sex with a guy willingly, claim rape.
Evan, all time best friend no one comes before him, known him and his family since I was like three years old. Spent more time with him I think then anyone else, so weird because we have no common intrest except for the fact that we can both read each other like a book.
I'm in my car at a hotel parking lot, waiting to get my room carded so I can get a free place to live tonight, well free for me not free for whoever gets my bill lelelele point being someone jsut past me by and I wanted to ask them if they have time to read my book. If someone comes by that looks half intelligent I might ask them to read this. I get distracted so easily, was writng about my friends ( I stopped writing this sentence half way got distracted I don't even remember with what seconds ago) and just saw a person and wrote about him.
30 minutes later and I haven't finished the 8 people. This book will never be done, * chuckled at own self attention span* Jesus crist what is wrong with me lol. I'm going to make an effort to write just one page a day with no missed days and have a total of four hundred to five hundred pages before I attempt to get this book published, if this novel is not published I'll just mass email it to the 100 million emails I have. If it is published and I can't get publicity for it and I happen to be rich I will personally pay for 100 million copies of this book to be made and ship it to people randomly and allow people to donate to me if they like the book. That would be cool? Free book if you feel the book was worth anything to you send me a donation if you like if you don't want to or can't afford it then okay and if you didn't like it send me the book back if you want and I'll send you $3 for taking the time to read it and send it back. Hmm, that'd be nice if I had the capital. End 11/23/13
Didn't even finish the list I'll end up finsihing it here is another one since we talked earlier it's still 11/23/13.
Momma Peggy, I call everyones mom just "mom" they are someones mom right? And in my phone it's Momma ( if they are a mom that has a kid I know ) and her name. Peggy, ANYWAYS jesus crist you don't care about that even I don't carea bout that. Anyways, I asked her if she could book me a hotel and i'd give her the cash in a week or something she said sure, I said nvm I don't need it anymore. Mostly because IDK when I'd have the cash and I felt bad for asking. Espically her, I know her son and we are alright friends but she was an office lady from school I don't know what title they get. But she is the best she knows i'd doa nything for her, someone cursed her out I almost got charged for threatning to kill someone because I told that BITCH Swartz what the fuck deal was if he ever said some shit like that he knwos he would get his ass wwhooped. She is also friendly with Anthony, Victor, Joey, If you saw how swoll these kids are and how nuts they are and their reputation you don't want to be on there badside and she is cool with them and hooked them up too, and by hook up I just mean she gave us pass's to leave school and cleared out attendence and stuff, pretty funny. She's the best.
My brother told Mike he wanted to talk to me, there is nothing to talk about I don't know what he doesn't understand, I don't like him, he's a worthless sack of shit, I hope he gets hit by a bus geniunly but I hope a lot of people get hit by a bus so don't think that's a big deal. He got robbed, he had his chance to fight me, he's a bitch. End of story move on with your life idiot. I don't know what he wants to talk about nor do I care.
I guess that's all that I have for now... I hopeee I keep my promise of a page a day.
Wow, I went to go look at my screenshots before closing my laptop I see a picture of me speaking to Raymond N, Raymond N is the person who hoosk me on up on skype accounts. whenever I went to live chat I kept asking for Raymond B, idk why but I hought his name was Raymond B, how the fuck did I fuck that up oh my god. I fucked up so hard
I am flat broke in America now. I have nothing left. I have to much pride and ego to ask anyone in the real world for any help. Not to mention that the only thing I'm thinking about is to kill everyone who has ever screwed me in life in any way shape or form. This is 12/11/2013
I have no intention of living past next sunday if I'm still alive and in the same situation I will commit sucidie. I plan to check my self into a mental institute. Good luck to all who have read this and or will read this in the future.
If by 12/15 this has not been updated anyone who reads this expect me to be dead or in a mental hospital.
Good bye.
Martin Maziar Zamani
Proud crazy Pyschopath and Sociopath.
Shoutout jizzy q
