Depression

[Prepare]

Hey guys, lately things in my life have been really rough for me. Very rough to be more precise. I'm generally a very happy person. I never really had any sort of problems of any sort. My life was basically perfect to my liking. Recently, however, things have taken a turn for the worse.

My parents have gotten divorced, my first love of three years left me, my grades are so pathetic with final exams coming up just next week, my health has gone down hill, I don't eat, and I've lost any and every interest to do things that I normally loved to do.

I've lost nearly ten pounds in just under two weeks because I can't come to gather the energy to do eat. I just cannot do anything. I don't sleep at night, so I fall asleep in every one of my classes and it takes a major toll on my grades. Basically what I do now is I wake up, go to school, come home and repeat. I've tried to hang out with friends and do things, but I simply can't.

I also have a very high anxiety level. Which only makes things 100x worse. I get worried very easily, I constantly feel trapped, and I feel as if there is just nothing I can do. On top of that, I have hives.

This has been going on for over a month. I can't take any of it anymore. I just feel so hopeless, lost, sad, and helpless. I don't know what to do.

 

[TakeItBreezy]

Just keep your head up bro, it's all you can do. Things will get better, just keep a positive attitude.

 

[Nevermind]

I have had some of the same problems recently. My grades haven't dropped, though. If anything, they've gotten better. There is a certain group of kids at school that hate me, and just give me these awful looks. They isolate me, make me feel small, and make me self-conscious. That's very minuscule compared to everything else. I have lost interest in a lot of things. My anxiety is worse. I cry a lot. Those things don't really matter, either. Most of the time, I just felt like I was trapped in an endless cycle, similar to the one that you described. I've gotten help. I go to acupuncture on Tuesdays and I have therapy sessions on Wednesdays. Both of those things have helped me immensely. I am no refocused on the things I love; competitive gaming, percussion (drums), debate team, and of course, ForumKorner. I would suggest acupuncture or therapy. Also, if you haven't tried it already, try marijuana. That helped me a lot last year. If that doesn't work, go to therapy. That is extremely helpful. Just talking about it makes such a difference.

 

[iDefy]

I suffered a lot of the same struggles as you are. Parents getting divorced hurts on a level that a lot of people don't understand. The thing I did, is bury all of the feelings I had about my parents splitting, until I exploded and put myself in ICU for a week and a half. I don't want to see anybody get to that point. These are things I've found help me.

First: Try to find an outlet. Something that you can do that helps let out your emotions.
Second: Find someone you can trust with every single thing that upsets you, and know they'll support you. It's hard, I know, but it can be done. I am always open for any kind of venting, and I will just listen, or give you advice if you'd like. PM me anytime or message me on AIM and I got you buddy.
Third: If none of those help, seek further help. Go to therapy, and maybe even get on some depression and anxiety meds. I use this as a last resort because I believe that most people can get out of the rut on their own, but some people, like myself, need a little boost to get out. Sort of like a friend pushing another friends car out of the mud.

Like I said man, PM me or message me on AIM any time. If it gets serious enough, I'll give you my cell phone number so you can reach me at any time. I don't want to see anything happen to someone because of depression.

 

[Bump Bot]

Sigh unfortunately I know exactly what you are going through. My ggrades were so bad and I was so depressed I dropped out of school. What made me feel like not killing myself again was to talk to people about it. My mom was the one I could talk about everything with she was my rock. You just need to find someone that will listen and that could be me if you wantef it to be.

 

[Dangelo]

I 100% understand where you are coming from. I recently had some life changing things happen to me which turned my life upside down. I am now getting things back on track but finding getting over my recent breakup the hardest thing.

The best advice I can give you is having an achievable goal for the day. I am not talking about turning your life around in a week because that wont happen but baby steps are the way forward. For instance, wake up in the morning and tell yourself, "I am going to cook dinner tonight."

If you are having trouble sleeping, exercise! Just a 20 minute run will make the world of difference. Also, turn your computer off an hour before you plan to sleep. Look into techniques to empty your brain before you climb into bed.

 

[Fireworks]

Hey guys, lately things in my life have been really rough for me. Very rough to be more precise. I'm generally a very happy person. I never really had any sort of problems of any sort. My life was basically perfect to my liking. Recently, however, things have taken a turn for the worse.

My parents have gotten divorced, my first love of three years left me, my grades are so pathetic with final exams coming up just next week, my health has gone down hill, I don't eat, and I've lost any and every interest to do things that I normally loved to do.

I've lost nearly ten pounds in just under two weeks because I can't come to gather the energy to do eat. I just cannot do anything. I don't sleep at night, so I fall asleep in every one of my classes and it takes a major toll on my grades. Basically what I do now is I wake up, go to school, come home and repeat. I've tried to hang out with friends and do things, but I simply can't.

I also have a very high anxiety level. Which only makes things 100x worse. I get worried very easily, I constantly feel trapped, and I feel as if there is just nothing I can do. On top of that, I have hives.

This has been going on for over a month. I can't take any of it anymore. I just feel so hopeless, lost, sad, and helpless. I don't know what to do.

I have depression too, and honestly if you don't live in a state that has legal marijuana, then you need to listen to music. Listen to music about how you feel, and about how you want to feel. I'll tell you, this worked wonders for me.

 

[Yeti]

What Really Helps

My Advice

Go to your doctor. Honestly they will help a lot. I was sick for two weeks and I was really sad too. I felt very lonely and trapped inside of where I was. The thing about doctors is they're specialized in all things medical. Im sure he'll be able to direct you to any help wether it be spiritual, medical, or whatnot its worth a shot. Also do things that make you happy and every now and then its nice to just IGNORE all your feelings. Just do it. Be mindful. Furthermore FORCE yourself to eat Trust me! I am 110 pounds D) but thats only because I forced myself to eat when I was sick. Who knows what would've happened if I stopped eating. Also take long walks they help. Believe it or not a LOT of people go through this, they just don't like to talk about it. Every mountain has a bottom right?

AIM Me sometime: Noodles

If it helps:
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
1-800-273-TALK (8255)

UPDATE: You have anxiety. Well, me too! Sadly it runs in the family. Even more of the reason to go to your doctor man. Just find someone irl who you can share you feelings with. This trapped feeling happens to me a lot, sometimes ill have a mini panic attack and everything seems 2D and I have to calm myself and sit down. That doesn't happen as much though.

Good luck @Prepare

 

[Fuck]

Your story sounds sadly similar to mine without all of the drugs. My advice is to just be around things that make you happy as you might find this as a crucial decision making time.