Not sure what to call this.

If you've been dealing with me lately, sorry for the wait.
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Sorry to the owners of groups I'm in as well, for inactivity.
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Just haven't been feeling myself lately, going through a ton of personal issues that are just more important than spending time on a forum, and been too busy to make graphics lately.

Basically, I have depression (yes, it is a real mental disorder you ignorant fucks, look it up. I'm not just being a whiny bitch) and lately a huge wave of it has just hit me.
It happened seemingly out of the blue, there is no real explanation to why, this shit just happens sometimes. Some days I find myself unable to perform a simple task or even just pretend to be happy.

Hoping this shit's over soon, trying to stay happy and positive and whatnot, but meh. It's whatever.

Please feel free to let me know how privileged I am as a straight white cis male living in pretty good conditions in North America, and how my struggles are actually irrelevant in the grand scheme of things because I am just being a whiny bitch. I rather enjoy reading uneducated people telling me the chemical imbalance in my brain can be chopped up to me being spoiled.

Sorry to everyone I've disappointed, or continue to disappoint on a daily basis. You will all be getting your shit, as soon as I am able to do it. Patience is a virtue.

This is due to your current financial situation, but thanks to my method last night it should perk you up real soon. You also forgot to leave me a vouch!

I hope you feel better soon mate, Honestly... Out of all the shit I do here, I actually mean this. Stay positive buddy, you know where to contact me if you need someone.

Krish said:

This is due to your current financial situation, but thanks to my method last night it should perk you up real soon.

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Nah, been like this for a bit. Nothing to do with my financial situation, tbh.
I'm not in a bad financial position, just wish I could be making more money on my own so I don't have to bother my parents.

Yosemite said:

Nah, been like this for a bit. Nothing to do with my financial situation, tbh.
I'm not in a bad financial position, just wish I could be making more money on my own so I don't have to bother my parents.

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You still didn't leave a vouch for my money making method homeboy...

No problem dude, I understand. Take your time, get better dude.

Jaii said:

I hope you feel better soon mate, Honestly... Out of all the shit I do here, I actually mean this. Stay positive buddy, you know where to contact me if you need someone.

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Thank you man, I appreciate it. I'll hit you up if I need to, but I probably won't because I feel like telling people my issues is bothersome, I don't even talk to my irls about shit like this.
I felt bad enough posting this thread because I feel like people will think I am begging for their sympathy when in reality I couldn't care less

Hey @Yosemite its fine man! Sorry to hear about your depression, that kind of stuff sucks
If you need anyone to talk to for laughs or just to relax, feel free to pm me man. I'll always be able to help ya out, and I'm sure everyone here is too!
Don't be bummed out about your work, this stuff happens all the time, and like you said, patience is a virtue! Just take a break from all the work, and get back to it when you feel better. Don't push yourself to do work when you're not in the mood, because you'll just stress yourself out more!

Yosemite said:

Thank you man, I appreciate it. I'll hit you up if I need to, but I probably won't because I feel like telling people my issues is bothersome, I don't even talk to my irls about shit like this.
I felt bad enough posting this thread because I feel like people will think I am begging for their sympathy when in reality I couldn't care less

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it is the internet, you can say anything, no one can have a REAL matter of opinion nor statement without correctional judgement. You have nothing to worry about if you decide to come talk with me. I'll help you out.

Krish said:

You still didn't leave a vouch for my money making method homeboy...

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someone clearly doesn't care about @'yosemite''s well being
yosemite i think you have my kik and if i remember correctly your name is brandon?
i think we've talked once or twice but i'm always available on kik
if you don't have my kik pm me

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someone clearly doesn't care about @'yosemite''s well being
yosemite i think you have my kik and if i remember correctly your name is brandon?
i think we've talked once or twice but i'm always available on kik
if you don't have my kik pm me

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still the two letter, i think it has a . in it?

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someone clearly doesn't care about @'yosemite''s well being
yosemite i think you have my kik and if i remember correctly your name is brandon?
i think we've talked once or twice but i'm always available on kik
if you don't have my kik pm me

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How is that apparent? How do you know my relationship with @Yosemite? I've known him for the well part of a year now. He knows I care, I just express it in a different way. I know you don't like me, but don't come trying to put me on blast with something you have 0 knowledge about. Also before you hit me with that "oh but look you didn't even talk about his feelings" I'm gonna go ahead and tell you that you really shouldn't be talking about feeling sorry, you should save that feeling for yourself.

A reply to this isn't necessary because it'll drag on and on. My sincere apologies to @Yosemite for banter on your thread.

Krish said:

How is that apparent? How do you know my relationship with @Yosemite? I've known him for the well part of a year now. He knows I care, I just express it in a different way. I know you don't like me, but don't come trying to put me on blast with something you have 0 knowledge about. Also before you hit me with that "oh but look you didn't even talk about his feelings" I'm gonna go ahead and tell you that you really shouldn't be talking about feeling sorry, you should save that feeling for yourself.  

A reply to this isn't necessary because it'll drag on and on. My sincere apologies to @Yosemite for banter on your thread.

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it's 100% apparent considering you asked for a vouch on a thread about him not feeling well
but goodbye krish

Also, @yosemite, the moment you let psychological issues such as depression impact your life you've already lost. Studies show most depression goes away when it's ignored. If you want me to elaborate you can iMessage me. There are many ways to help your depression but I'd hope it's not that serious.

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it's 100% apparent considering you asked for a vouch on a thread about him not feeling well
but goodbye krish

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Ok considering you're ignorant about this topic I'll teach you. That "vouch" doesn't exist and neither does that service I asked him to vouch for. Last night he wanted to make money and I showed him the ways, he was quite delighted after that. I told him to vouch so he would remember that feeling and cheer up. I wasn't going to say "hey get well soon" because he gets tons of those and they don't mean anything. Sharing a memory that leads to an emotion is stronger than pixels on a screen saying "talk to me" , "get well soon". Before you say "you could've just said, 'remember last night?'" No that's forcing a memory, not having him make and build that connection. So goodbye Gunnar, next time please know about the topic you're talking about.

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Also, @yosemite, the moment you let psychological issues such as depression impact your life you've already lost. Studies show most depression goes away when it's ignored. If you want me to elaborate you can iMessage me. There are many ways to help your depression but I'd hope it's not that serious.

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I've tried ignoring it and even taken up multiple distractions but it's no use, shit always comes back and it hits harder. I can't ignore it really, because it's always there in the back of my mind.

I understand man. I hope you're well and I'm always here for a chat to support you and cheer you up buddy.

Krish said:

Also, @yosemite, the moment you let psychological issues such as depression impact your life you've already lost. Studies show most depression goes away when it's ignored. If you want me to elaborate you can iMessage me. There are many ways to help your depression but I'd hope it's not that serious.

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Ok considering you're ignorant about this topic I'll teach you. That "vouch" doesn't exist and neither does that service I asked him to vouch for. Last night he wanted to make money and I showed him the ways, he was quite delighted after that. I told him to vouch so he would remember that feeling and cheer up. I wasn't going to say "hey get well soon" because he gets tons of those and they don't mean anything. Sharing a memory that leads to an emotion is stronger than pixels on a screen saying "talk to me" , "get well soon". Before you say "you could've just said, 'remember last night?'" No that's forcing a memory, not having him make and build that connection. So goodbye Gunnar, next time please know about the topic you're talking about.

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here's the thing we both think differently
your methods of telling someone that depression isn't real and once it gets in your head you've lost or being an asshole and telling someone to man up isn't always the answer 
neither is my answer of trying to comfort someone and talk about the issue and find ways to solve it
we are two different people and we have different morals and philosophies 
i know we disagree and i don't want to argue anymore 
i'm just gonna agree to disagree 
put a neg rep pn me if you please i'm changing mine to a positive and telling you i'll stay away from you have a nice one and i wish you luck in life

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here's the thing we both think differently
your methods of telling someone that depression isn't real and once it gets in your head you've lost or being an asshole and telling someone to man up isn't always the answer 
neither is my answer of trying to comfort someone and talk about the issue and find ways to solve it
we are two different people and we have different morals and philosophies 
i know we disagree and i don't want to argue anymore 
i'm just gonna agree to disagree 
put a neg rep pn me if you please i'm changing mine to a positive and telling you i'll stay away from you have a nice one and i wish you luck in life

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It's real but depression is only as real as you let it be. Goodbye and likewise.

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Also in no point did I ever say man up and face it @Yosemite, that is one of the worst things a person like you can do at this point.

Damn Yosemite, never knew this. Well I've been through some rough patches all throughout this year, and a bit of last year, and I'm sure @Krish could tell you that too. It helped me out a lot to talk about it, not sure how that works with you, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, I'm here .

Sorry to hear that buddy it comes and goes though and hopefully you will perk up soon I'm here if you ever need anything