Hey guys I have been going through tons lately and its time to open up to people because I feel I got a calling to help people over the internet, to help them through bad things that are going on in their lives.
But to tell you what has been happening to me in the past week.
Now I do drugs, not just smoke weed, I pop pills, random ones my friends give me. Well I am officially done with that due to the fact that Friday I popped about 4 pills and got a major high, major. I then got invited to go drive out somewhere to go get smoked up, I was all for it, but it back fired. I picked them up, talkin and smoking as usual, listening to music, but then I started to fade out, the worse feeling in my entire life. I then told my girlfriend she had to drive, that something was wrong, that I had a feeling something was about to happen. We got out and switched, but right when I was going into the passenger seat, I fell back, into the ditch. I blacked out, for four hours. They told me I was out, I had no heart beat for i dont know how long. They said I am lucky to be alive. I am done with pills and that whole fiasco, I rely on God. I probably will still smoke weed, but I am done with life threatening things such as pills. I feel I am called to tell the internet my life story, to help people through things. I am called in it, I can feel it.
I can tell that there are signs of me of doing this, of actually waking up out of my fantasy of trying to be the best, trying to fit in the most, faking everything. Faking life. I am not fully living for God, serving for him and I feel as if he wants me to come on here and other websites and help people through things such as depression, parent problems, drug abuse and a lot of other things such as what to do when you are going to court. I feel as if tons of people need healings and I feel as if I can help them through it, whether its on AIM or on FK Private Messaging.
Thursday night I was supposed to go hang out with some of my friends, go smoke a bit and drive and get some people, well I could not and I thank the Lord for that. They got in a huge car accident, they are fine, but the police officer said that if anyone was in the back seat they were going to die no matter what. I was suppose to sit in the back seat. I backed out due to the fact my mom was sick.
Guys if you ever need anything hit me or @Michael up, we will help you through it, I promise.
But to tell you what has been happening to me in the past week.
Now I do drugs, not just smoke weed, I pop pills, random ones my friends give me. Well I am officially done with that due to the fact that Friday I popped about 4 pills and got a major high, major. I then got invited to go drive out somewhere to go get smoked up, I was all for it, but it back fired. I picked them up, talkin and smoking as usual, listening to music, but then I started to fade out, the worse feeling in my entire life. I then told my girlfriend she had to drive, that something was wrong, that I had a feeling something was about to happen. We got out and switched, but right when I was going into the passenger seat, I fell back, into the ditch. I blacked out, for four hours. They told me I was out, I had no heart beat for i dont know how long. They said I am lucky to be alive. I am done with pills and that whole fiasco, I rely on God. I probably will still smoke weed, but I am done with life threatening things such as pills. I feel I am called to tell the internet my life story, to help people through things. I am called in it, I can feel it.
I can tell that there are signs of me of doing this, of actually waking up out of my fantasy of trying to be the best, trying to fit in the most, faking everything. Faking life. I am not fully living for God, serving for him and I feel as if he wants me to come on here and other websites and help people through things such as depression, parent problems, drug abuse and a lot of other things such as what to do when you are going to court. I feel as if tons of people need healings and I feel as if I can help them through it, whether its on AIM or on FK Private Messaging.
Thursday night I was supposed to go hang out with some of my friends, go smoke a bit and drive and get some people, well I could not and I thank the Lord for that. They got in a huge car accident, they are fine, but the police officer said that if anyone was in the back seat they were going to die no matter what. I was suppose to sit in the back seat. I backed out due to the fact my mom was sick.
Guys if you ever need anything hit me or @Michael up, we will help you through it, I promise.