Thoughts on my life.

Jamil · Feb 15, 2015

Right now I'm sitting on the lid of my toilet, just thinking about my life. The only non-living thing that gives me happiness is music. I don't like sports and I don't hang out with friends. They always disappear when I need them and most of them lowkey don't like me. I honestly wish I could just venture off alone and start my life without "friends". Only person I talk to is @user and most of the time he is stoned or at work. No girls seem to have an interest in me and it don't see why. To myself I'm not that bad looking and I am really nice to most girls I meet. I don't smoke nor drink and I am enjoyable to be around. I love to graphic design but I hate the fact that I have designed so much work for them to sit on my laptop offline. No one seems to actually enjoy my art. I just like creating something new. I do not have a job yet because I haven't taken the time to apply yet and I am 16 actually. I am currently a junior in high school and I have a bit of missing credits. I am atheist and have never had a presence of God in my life.

I know no one will read this but I might as well post this. Things feel better off your chest. Goodnight guys. Troll and joke around all you want, it has no effect on me.

If anyone needs me, my Kik is "lotus".

Amp · Feb 15, 2015

I feel the same way about things a lot of the time, which is why I have the "fuck it" mentality when it comes to people in general, because I see most as temporary. I have friends, but when it comes down to it, I don't see them coming through when absolutely needed, which is why I'd rather keep to myself. The only two people I feel will always be there are my cousins, but they are so far away and may be even further away soon.

I hate school, but at the same time I try to enjoy it while I can, but it's hard when what I really want is to get out. I have a job, it's alright sometimes, but I'd much rather be doing something else.

Seems as though we are similar in a sense.

Jamil · Feb 16, 2015

Amp said:
I feel the same way about things a lot of the time, which is why I have the "fuck it" mentality when it comes to people in general, because I see most as temporary. I have friends, but when it comes down to it, I don't see them coming through when absolutely needed, which is why I'd rather keep to myself. The only two people I feel will always be there are my cousins, but they are so far away and may be even further away soon.

I hate school, but at the same time I try to enjoy it while I can, but it's hard when what I really want is to get out. I have a job, it's alright sometimes, but I'd much rather be doing something else.

Seems as though we are similar in a sense.

My only true friend is my cousin and she lives 200 miles away and has 1,000,000 friends and better things to do than to talk to me.

Radical · Feb 16, 2015

Jamillion said:
My only true friend is my cousin and she lives 200 miles away and has 1,000,000 friends and better things to do than to talk to me.

Do you plan on going to college?

Jamil · Feb 16, 2015

ℛadical said:
Do you plan on going to college?

Not entirely sure or even what I want to do as a career.

Radical · Feb 16, 2015

Jamillion said:
Not entirely sure or even what I want to do as a career.

Well, if you do go to college I believe it is a new start with your personal life. I only have 6 friends I still talk to from highschool

Nab · Feb 16, 2015

Jamillion said:
Right now I'm sitting on the lid of my toilet, just thinking about my life. The only non-living thing that gives me happiness is music. I don't like sports and I don't hang out with friends. They always disappear when I need them and most of them lowkey don't like me. I honestly wish I could just venture off alone and start my life without "friends". Only person I talk to is @user and most of the time he is stoned or at work. No girls seem to have an interest in me and it don't see why. To myself I'm not that bad looking and I am really nice to most girls I meet. I don't smoke nor drink and I am enjoyable to be around. I love to graphic design but I hate the fact that I have designed so much work for them to sit on my laptop offline. No one seems to actually enjoy my art. I just like creating something new. I do not have a job yet because I haven't taken the time to apply yet and I am 16 actually. I am currently a junior in high school and I have a bit of missing credits. I am atheist and have never had a presence of God in my life.

I know no one will read this but I might as well post this. Things feel better off your chest. Goodnight guys. Troll and joke around all you want, it has no effect on me.

If anyone needs me, my Kik is "lotus".

This sounds like me except for a few things. I listen to music too much, and now I don't really connect with my friends as much as I did in middle school and elementary school. They all did sports while I couldn't. (I have a heart condition.) So I just stayed inside and played Runescape. (Lol.) I like doing graphic art also, but honestly people will just use you for a signature and not give a shit, then blow you off. People love/hate my work, its w/e. Looking for a job right now aswell, any place hiring is looking for someone 18. (I'm 16.) Sophomore in highschool, missing 2 credits because I was expelled and fucked by the juvenile legal system. Just gotta find the bright things in life man. Hmu if you wanna chat.

Jamil · Feb 16, 2015

got said:
This sounds like me except for a few things. I listen to music too much, and now I don't really connect with my friends as much as I did in middle school and elementary school. They all did sports while I couldn't. (I have a heart condition.) So I just stayed inside and played Runescape. (Lol.) I like doing graphic art also, but honestly people will just use you for a signature and not give a shit, then blow you off. People love/hate my work, its w/e. Looking for a job right now aswell, any place hiring is looking for someone 18. (I'm 16.) Sophomore in highschool, missing 2 credits because I was expelled and fucked by the juvenile legal system. Just gotta find the bright things in life man. Hmu if you wanna chat.

Hmu on kik. My kik is lotus. I am on rn.

Nab · Feb 16, 2015

Jamillion said:
Hmu on kik. My kik is lotus. I am on rn.

I don't kik man, probably the only person who doesn't have a phone in the US.

RondosRocket · Feb 16, 2015

well first off you need to go outside bro this internet bullshyt is just a place to escape when you lonely. You need to go buy a hooker and have sex for the first time then get checked the next day just in case

you are still young and have a long way ahead to think about a career just take little steps and go outside and be active

Chrisu · Feb 16, 2015

I'm going to come off pretty cliché to start. Life, is actually what you make of it. Yes, you can sit there and think of your life in great detail. God only knows I do a lot. I over think, over analyze everything. Most people do and it seems you're in that boat as well. I'll be honest, sitting there doing nothing about certain won't change anything. You are 16... 16. You are still fairly young and have much life left to change things. Hell, through high school I had maybe 4 friends that I really hung out with and talked to more than "small talk."

Of course you don't know what career you want, you haven't met that special girl yet. There isn't anything different about that, everyone is unique. When I was 16, I had no idea what I wanted in life at all, was actually in a similar situation as you are now. I joined the military for a changing experience, that kick in the ass and my life went a full 360.

If you take anything from what I said (or even bother to read it.) Take this out of it...
You walk life one step at a time, but sometimes you need to take a leap of faith to reach your true potential.

Gym · Feb 16, 2015

Jamillion said:
Right now I'm sitting on the lid of my toilet, just thinking about my life. The only non-living thing that gives me happiness is music. I don't like sports and I don't hang out with friends. They always disappear when I need them and most of them lowkey don't like me. I honestly wish I could just venture off alone and start my life without "friends". Only person I talk to is @user and most of the time he is stoned or at work. No girls seem to have an interest in me and it don't see why. To myself I'm not that bad looking and I am really nice to most girls I meet. I don't smoke nor drink and I am enjoyable to be around. I love to graphic design but I hate the fact that I have designed so much work for them to sit on my laptop offline. No one seems to actually enjoy my art. I just like creating something new. I do not have a job yet because I haven't taken the time to apply yet and I am 16 actually. I am currently a junior in high school and I have a bit of missing credits. I am atheist and have never had a presence of God in my life.

I know no one will read this but I might as well post this. Things feel better off your chest. Goodnight guys. Troll and joke around all you want, it has no effect on me.

If anyone needs me, my Kik is "lotus".

Some of the things you stated mirror me perfectly.
Stay up homie, I do stuff that everyone likes to fit in, in a way.
It's not that bad in the end.

tired · Feb 16, 2015

Hate us cause they aint us

just punch that motherfucker right in the face

when i say us i mean E-gods well im a faggot but you get it

Habs · Feb 16, 2015

If you ever want to talk hit me up on kik: trxpper

Life sucks sometimes

Gor · Feb 16, 2015

yea maybe get off fk and find what makes you happy....

elite · Feb 16, 2015

1. get good grades
2. get good friends
3. get good bitch

Package · Feb 17, 2015

Try to meet new people, go to clubs/events you haven't been to before and introduce yourself. It works wonders.

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