Have you ever considered suicide?

[Name]

I am very curious as to how many people have actually considered taking their own like before.
Personally, I have multiple times, but never was able to do it. I just don't think it's fair to my loved ones to go out that way. I still think about it quite often and have been starting to think there is something really wrong with me, but only rarely do I actually think about how I would go about taking my life. 
How many of you here have thought about suicide or attempted suicide? Also what is your outlook on it?

 

[Zeus]

I have never thought about it because I tell myself I have too much going on for myself.

 

[Vinc]

Never! And will never consider it,
life is a rollercoaster, if it goes 'down' it will always go 'up'
It will always get better, how impossible it something seems, suicide is never the answer.

 

[Bishop]

I've tried 2 times. one time I took 17 sleep aid tablets hoping I would go to sleep and just not wake up. I was asleep for about 37 hours. once I woke up I had a migraine headache and I could barely open my eyes and I threw up for about 2 hours. I don't know how survived to be honest

the second time I was at a party. I took 2 Oxy's, snorted some hydrocodone, drank lean, smoked some were and drank a bit. I was trying to OD but it didn't work. idk how, but it's a miracle. tbh everyone thinks about suicide. I still do. I won't ever try to kill myself again. this is my junior year of high school. it has been one of the best years of my life. I'm popular in school, drive an 06 Dodge Charger with some badass tinted windows. I have a nice job and sell weed so I make good money. I have a lot of friends. I love my family and all they do for me. I'm currently in a relationship with my beautiful girlfriend Natalie. I still have a whole new life ahead of me after high school. keep your head up high. you can't give a fuck about shit. tbh I don't give a single fuck about anything but myself, money, family, and my lady life could end anytime soon or later. we are all gonna die eventually. life to short to care. make the best of it. just focus on yourself and your future and being successful with your life, and not some 23 year old bum who lives in his moms basement selling weed and doing drugs, getting drunk every weekend and partying. like I said before, money, yourself, family and someone you care for that's not a relative. keep your head up. smile big for the haters. words don't mean shit from people who dislike you. move on. it's just words. who gives a fuck

 

[Name]

I've tried 2 times. one time I took 17 sleep aid tablets hoping I would go to sleep and just not wake up. I was asleep for about 37 hours. once I woke up I had a migraine headache and I could barely open my eyes and I threw up for about 2 hours. I don't know how survived to be honest

the second time I was at a party. I took 2 Oxy's, snorted some hydrocodone, drank lean, smoked some were and drank a bit. I was trying to OD but it didn't work. idk how, but it's a miracle. tbh everyone thinks about suicide. I still do. I won't ever try to kill myself again. this is my junior year of high school. it has been one of the best years of my life. I'm popular in school, drive an 06 Dodge Charger with some badass tinted windows. I have a nice job and sell weed so I make good money. I have a lot of friends. I love my family and all they do for me. I'm currently in a relationship with my beautiful girlfriend Natalie. I still have a whole new life ahead of me after high school. keep your head up high. you can't give a fuck about shit. tbh I don't give a single fuck about anything but myself, money, family, and my lady life could end anytime soon or later. we are all gonna die eventually. life to short to care. make the best of it. just focus on yourself and your future and being successful with your life, and not some 23 year old bum who lives in his moms basement selling weed and doing drugs, getting drunk every weekend and partying. like I said before, money, yourself, family and someone you care for that's not a relative. keep your head up. smile big for the haters. words don't mean shit from people who dislike you. move on. it's just words. who gives a fuck

This is truthfully one of the best and most uplifting things I have ever read. Kudos to you, man. Wish you the best of luck for your future. Thanks for the good words.

 

[California]

I personally have before , like thought about . I think more people have then they're willing to admit . I could never actually do it though unless I was in a really shitty shitty situation .

 

[Hotbox]

I have always thought about it in the back of my head at shitty situations but that's it.

 

[Bishop]

This is truthfully one of the best and most uplifting things I have ever read. Kudos to you, man. Wish you the best of luck for your future. Thanks for the good words.

thanks man. I speak my mind. no holding back. keep your head up niggy. if you ever need anything im here for ya

 

[Jaii]

Considering suicide would contemplate your own life and your actions of what you have done, only those with a lot of stress and/or troubles going on within their life will have this thought spinning round in circles in their mind. But for myself.. I've never thought about this, I've had way too much time on my hands to stop and think about this kind of thing.

 

[One]

I haven't because I'm not a weak pussy.

 

[Jukebox]

Have I ever considered suicide? Good question.

*TRIGGER WARNING*

About 3 years ago, I was diagnosed with severe depression, and I had self harm ideations. Then, everything kind of went wrong. I got dumped and we were together for 2 years, and then people started dying, I got bullied, and found no purpose in living anymore. I cut superficially and was brought to the hospital by the cops. After that, I started getting worse. I started doing drugs and drinking to try to help me forget.. Except, it didn't help me forget. It made me remember everything. I got 6 stitches a few months after that, and then performed my first suicide attempt at school. Took my whole bottle of ativan, locked myself in the bathroom stall, and knocked myself out on the toilet. (Hit my head on it). I woke up to a bunch of students in the bathroom, and I was being paged to go to the office. Instead, I went in my forth period class and cut myself, and then I went into shock. My pulse was through the roof, and the school nurse called the ambulance. Since then, I have attempted suicide exactly 11 times. I was never remotely successful really. Except for the fact that I fractured my jaw once, and messed up my stomach. I was diagnosed with psychosis, and soon, I went from actively suicidal, to actively homicidal/suicidal. I had steered my mom off the road multiple times, jumped out of cars, stood ontop of bridges. Just a lot of stuff. The voice I heard was my grandmother. She wanted to be with my family. She kept telling me to kill them. I would see her. I attempted to kill my parents and little sister 3 times, and was locked up in the hospital for a year in total. I was removed from my house and placed in intensive treatment at a mental facility for 6 months after that. My last suicide attempt was last September, and so was the last time I self harmed. I am so proud of how far I have come. I also got a tattoo on my wrist. It is of mountains. It resembles my highs and lows, and the rocky parts were the rollercoaster we call life. Currently, I am still taking antipsychotic meds, and anti depressants, as well as anti anxiety, adhd meds, sleep meds, etc. I have learned so much from this experience, and I hope you guys don't get too triggered by this..

"An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. When life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it's going to launch you into something great, so just focus, and keep aiming"

Thank you for reading this.

 

[old]

Haven't ever considered it. Never struggled with depression or any fufu shit. I consider suicide is something mentally weak people use as an "escape". It tends to create more grief than it solves. As you can tell I don't regard emo people highly.

 

[tattoo]

Yes because I just got scammed for my knife on csgo.

On a serious note, no. I think its a childish way out.

 

[Name]

Have I ever considered suicide? Good question.

*TRIGGER WARNING*

About 3 years ago, I was diagnosed with severe depression, and I had self harm ideations. Then, everything kind of went wrong. I got dumped and we were together for 2 years, and then people started dying, I got bullied, and found no purpose in living anymore. I cut superficially and was brought to the hospital by the cops. After that, I started getting worse. I started doing drugs and drinking to try to help me forget.. Except, it didn't help me forget. It made me remember everything. I got 6 stitches a few months after that, and then performed my first suicide attempt at school. Took my whole bottle of ativan, locked myself in the bathroom stall, and knocked myself out on the toilet. (Hit my head on it). I woke up to a bunch of students in the bathroom, and I was being paged to go to the office. Instead, I went in my forth period class and cut myself, and then I went into shock. My pulse was through the roof, and the school nurse called the ambulance. Since then, I have attempted suicide exactly 11 times. I was never remotely successful really. Except for the fact that I fractured my jaw once, and messed up my stomach. I was diagnosed with psychosis, and soon, I went from actively suicidal, to actively homicidal/suicidal. I had steered my mom off the road multiple times, jumped out of cars, stood ontop of bridges. Just a lot of stuff. The voice I heard was my grandmother. She wanted to be with my family. She kept telling me to kill them. I would see her. I attempted to kill my parents and little sister 3 times, and was locked up in the hospital for a year in total. I was removed from my house and placed in intensive treatment at a mental facility for 6 months after that. My last suicide attempt was last September, and so was the last time I self harmed. I am so proud of how far I have come. I also got a tattoo on my wrist. It is of mountains. It resembles my highs and lows, and the rocky parts were the rollercoaster we call life. Currently, I am still taking antipsychotic meds, and anti depressants, as well as anti anxiety, adhd meds, sleep meds, etc. I have learned so much from this experience, and I hope you guys don't get too triggered by this..

"An arrow can only be shot by pulling it backward. When life is dragging you back with difficulties, it means it's going to launch you into something great, so just focus, and keep aiming"

Thank you for reading this.

I fucking love you. Some may disagree with this statement, but I respect you so much. I am so glad to hear that you have been clean since September, and I hope you stay clean. I really respect the position you are in. I want you to know that even though I do not personally know about you, I care about you. I am glad you are still breathing. The struggles you have been through amaze me, but what amazes me even more is the fact that you got through them. Keep your head up and your spirits high! It really gives me a look at my life. I have dealt with some bad shit, I have also dealt with some shit that may have seemed bad, but looking back it wasn't such a big deal. I appreciate your strength to keep going. I respect your choices to stay clean knowing just how hard it can be. I pray that things for you only continue to go up from here. People DO care about you, and don't EVER forget that! You may feel worthless at times, I know I do, but you're not! You have value! You were placed on this Earth for a reason, and may you have steered off path a bit in your time, but look at yourself now. You sound like you are doing great. That just shows that things DO GET BETTER! If I could hug you, I would, just to show you people care about you. Thanks for sharing your remarkable story, and remember, it's not about how we fall, it's about how we get back up.

 

[Jukebox]

I fucking love you. Some may disagree with this statement, but I respect you so much. I am so glad to hear that you have been clean since September, and I hope you stay clean. I really respect the position you are in. I want you to know that even though I do not personally know about you, I care about you. I am glad you are still breathing. The struggles you have been through amaze me, but what amazes me even more is the fact that you got through them. Keep your head up and your spirits high! It really gives me a look at my life. I have dealt with some bad shit, I have also dealt with some shit that may have seemed bad, but looking back it wasn't such a big deal. I appreciate your strength to keep going. I respect your choices to stay clean knowing just how hard it can be. I pray that things for you only continue to go up from here. People DO care about you, and don't EVER forget that! You may feel worthless at times, I know I do, but you're not! You have value! You were placed on this Earth for a reason, and may you have steered off path a bit in your time, but look at yourself now. You sound like you are doing great. That just shows that things DO GET BETTER! If I could hug you, I would, just to show you people care about you. Thanks for sharing your remarkable story, and remember, it's not about how we fall, it's about how we get back up.

Thanks a million. This made me smile. I really appreciate it.

 

[Gemini]

I haven't because I'm not a weak pussy.

No, its because you're a rich white stoner kid who never been bullied because you went to a private school. Ill whoop your bitch ass fucking frostbite having rich boy. Your gay ass dad can't help you when i ride up in your rich neighborhood

 

[Level]

I've never considered suicide an option, but I have contemplated if there was a reason to live anymore. I took a step back and observed those around me and life around me, I quickly came to the conclusion that some people need me and I noticed the small, but immensely good things life offers, I just kept finding small reasons to keep living, for my family, friends, but mainly I found my reason within my religion, which I will not go into detail about and I also saw that there was many bad things in this world, but we are all born with a purpose, more specifically we live life to complete something, and I think I found what that thing is for me, which is to change all those wrong things that are happening by being good, you can't give up on this world, just try to make it better any way you can, for me I want to create programs helping people live there lives easier or improve these programs others made, that is why I'm entering into the field of computer sciences, I want to live to help others in the way that suits me best.

 

[Deany]

Yes. Only because I get worried/anxious about the smallest things.

 

[Citrus]

Ive had thoughts about it but never actually thought about committing suicide. I always wondered what it was like.

 

[Junior]

No, I'd rather kill myself before I commit suicide.