I dont really know you.. But i know you will soon get out of this stump. Life's like a book, it's full of chapters, but one bad chapter doesent end the book. You will get through this. I promise. If you can get a job even $10.00 an hour it would help you a lot trust me. Whatever it takes, do what you need to help your family. Good luck with everything man & i wish you the best of luck.